Husband Hunting For the Gay Man

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Charity begins at home.

I had sex with one of the older gentleman that contacted me last week. He may have been in his mid 40s (I didn't think it was polite to ask)

He had the benefit of a very well built body which made him a stand out. His face however showed his age, as we were "at it" I found myself mentally taking his face out and placing (insert hot blond guy's name here) on it.

This was definitely a "mercy fuck" or 'compassionate sex". I think the guy should be rewarded for taking care of himself.

The sex itself wasn't bad - I think every guy in his 20s should at least have sex with someone older once, if not twice. Be very selective though. I think you will find (as I have did) that the benefit of experience, translates into a much more fun time.

There was no fumbling, this guy was concerned about my experience and definitely knew how to execute on me having a good time. It was like going to the spa.

In the end - I think it's a toss up. He had trouble reaching the finish line, as most men his age do.

I need someone who is fit enough to run around the track with me.

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Barking up the wrong tree

One of my clients kissed me in the lobby today as I came greet her; and escorted her to my office for a meeting. (On the lips - She initiated it!)

Later, as she left my office, in a half jokingly way, she even asked me to marry her.

This has got to stop.

I'm trying folks.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Everybody needs somebody

I went to church today. I have the habit of arriving late but getting there early enough that no one in the congregation notices.

It’s the ultimate church going experience: I arrive just in time for the group prayer and closing service and miss the sermon. (The sermons lately have been very dull, which I why I don’t feel guilty doing this)

Perhaps if they get a new pastor or get guest speakers I may reconsider this. You could say that pretty much how I live my life: getting the most out of anything.

Don't be misguided. I never miss the opportunity to give back. Somehow, I’m always in time for the offering and never miss that. They always remember to hand me that basket.

I go to a very gay friendly church and caught the eye of another guy as I was passing down the aisle today. He’s sort of cute, definitely someone I could have sex with and has an appealing smile.

I made conversation with him afterward and gave him my number. Will he call back?

As I left, the Blues Brothers song “Everybody needs somebody” came up in my head.

Saturday, October 01, 2005

If I were straight

Women have for a long time have found me interesting. This has nothing to do with the Italian clothes I wear at work.

When I was in college (and in jeans snd a t-shirt) a girl whom I barely knew approached me and gave me a rose on Valentines Day. When I shared this knowledge with my friend B.M (my female best friend) she gave me this whole lecture about what a big deal that was to a girl to do that. "You're going to break her heart Kyle," she said.

Today all of this came to a climax. My female co-worker S.Q said to me out of the blue "Kyle, you're very cute. You need find yourself a man," while we were discussing a project in the conference room.

Ug.

On the subway ride back home, I contemplated how easy my life would be if I were straight. What the likes of Pat Roberson and Christian fundamentalists don't understand is I feel like it's not a choice, the way some people have blond hair and others have black. I'm not wired to be paired with a female.

Why on earth would I choose to be gay if I didn't have to?

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

When a picture stinks

Men really need to start grooming their pubes.

I've been spending the past few days cursing hook up sites such as M4m-world
in my attempt to have meaningless sex this week.

I've been getting responses from people who are old enough to be my dad, which is kind of creepy. The whole thing is sleazy, I think it's time to go back to basics.

But what has really been turning me off it unappealing pictures of dick! . Ewww!!!

If only these men would spend 10 percent of the time they spend on their pecks and prep up the show downstairs for "a night on the town", I'd be a happy man.

Overgrown pubic hair is disgusting. It makes giving head that much more complicated.

Monday, September 26, 2005

Help !!!!

My loving parents have just e-mailed me and indicated that they will be in New York for an entire month.

YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My parents are conservative republicans, the Asian immigrant kind that is TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH RONALD REAGAN.

I find myself having to be the good son when they are around. Part of the problem is that I have to respect them out of a sense of duty (this is very much an Asian thing)

My Mom said some rather hateful things when I came out to her 2 years ago.

She said, "Part of me wishes you were dead."

WHAT KIND OF A MOTHER SAYS THAT TO A SON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They have provided me with a lot, several years of education, care and love. Education at a very expensive private school might I add. Several of my friends have said to me that I should ditch them but here's my philosophy in all of this is : what ever happens they are still my parents and nothing I can do can change that.

In addition like the Asian parents that they are they are insisting that they stay nearby. The only escape that I can see from this is that I NEED A BOYFRIEND - QUICK!!!!

I have a few months. There is nothing like a sense of urgency to kick a plan into action.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

For better or for worse

My parents have been happily married for over 38 years. Their weeding anniversary is coming up.

They are still madly in love with each other after all these years.

People have commented to me throughout my life that loving parents raise loving children.

I will say this through: their continued infatuation with each other has blinded me with an idyllic sense of what to expect from other people in a relationship.

Could a gay relationship last 38 years? .

I don't know.

I've been single for 4 years.